Life-Giving Poison

I was thinking about chemo the other day and this phrase struck me - life-giving poison - as that is truly what it is. I'm about to start the 4th chemo cycle and as it approaches I have more trepidation because I know what it will bring. But then as I recognize that I feel poorly only because of the treatment. So I'm working on changing my attitude from that of worry about the chemo to acceptance (grudgingly so) and some measure of peace.