Based only upon some vague physical sensations, I managed to whip myself into a worry frenzy thinking the tumor has been rapidly growing since my last chemo session in June. This despite assurances to the contrary from the oncologist and my sister, based on observed treatment response.
I caved to my fear and obtained another CEA test which would have otherwise been done only when I resumed treatment on August 31st. After an anxious two days waiting for the result - the result was 3.5 (BAM! Ya baby!) For context, normal range is less than 3.1 and the last CEA test I had was after the 5th chemo cycle and I was at 4.2. So what does this show? First that the tumor is quite slow growing, and secondly, the 6th chemo cycle was very effective. What else does this episode demonstrate? That I need to be more at peace with my treatment and not allow fear to rule. Easier said than done but a valuable lesson to learn from.
Interesting how lessons learned seem to come from life's difficulties and not from life's ease. Interesting how we learn lessons the hard way and not the easy way. And I'm talking to myself louder than talking to you.
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Helen
So very happy about the CEA results!
ReplyDeleteYour feelings are completely understandable - who among us wouldn't have the CEA test?! You're a rock star Jim in my eyes. Love you very much. Joan
Rock star indeed.You're a man of courage Jim and I love you.
ReplyDeletePhase three, whoop! You have come a LONG way Jimmy! There are still many people asking about you and praying for your health and family. The Calmet's lit many candles for you at Lourdes in France! So remember you are loved always and you are stronger than you give yourself credit for. We are behind you all the way, honey badger attitude and all. love you, Laura
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